What I Do Know...

Well. It happened. AGAIN.  The contract has fallen through on the house. I'll leave out all the crazy dramatic details but it was a HUGE disappointment and setback. We got the call yesterday afternoon while I was still at school. We had just spent the week scrambling around trying to find a place to temporarily live and packing stuff up. We had no reason at all to believe this would not go through.

So after a major meltdown on my part - complete with crying, shaking, curling up in the fetal position under my desk (lol! just kidding) - I pulled myself together and tried to think through this rationally. First I have to give a HUGE SHOUT OUT to my husband who was so reassuring, so comforting, so freakin' calm. He just kept telling me "It's gonna be okay. God's still in control." And I'm just being all girlish and dramatic saying "I can't do this anymore...I am done...I can't go on..."  How he lives with me I do not know.  BUT - this HAS been an emotionally trying week considering this is the last week at the church and all and I can't bear in my heart even the thought of saying goodbye. And now I am just trying to understand what God is doing in all this because I totally don't get it.

But, after peeling myself off the ceiling and God just doing what he does best and calming my heart, here is what I DO KNOW:

God is still good.

God is still faithful.

This did not take Him by surprise.

He knows what he is doing with this whole mess even if we don't.

He is trustworthy.

He loves us.

He is orchestrating everything for HIS purpose.

And it seriously is okay.

 

So why am I completely flipping out over this house thing?  Yes, we would naturally be down and discouraged as we move in three months and ideally we want this house SOLD. I am emotionally strung out over all the events that have taken place over the last 2 months.  But I am so reminded that in the big scheme of things this is JUST a house:

 

 

We did not just find out our loved one has cancer.

We did not just have a child die.

We did not just have to give up our life for the gospel's sake.

We are surrounded by family that loves and supports us.

We have an exciting new ministry awaiting us in a few short months.

We have so much to be thankful for.

 

 

Stuff is just stuff. Life is disappointing. Life is not fair. It's like that if you are a Christian or not.  But the awesome thing is those of us who believe in Jesus have hope. We can rest and trust and believe that He is still in control. And it's a darn good thing he doesn't break his contract with us. Or walk away from the deal. Because then we would lose a lot more than a sale.

 

 

"Give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God's will in Christ Jesus"

1 Thessalonians 5:18

 

"And we know that all things work together for good for them that love God and are called according to his purpose."
Romans 8:28

 

"The Lord gives and the Lord takes away. Blessed be the name of the Lord."

Job 1:21

 



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